21 October 2014


I'm pretty much obsessed with this song now! Our big ballerinas did a pointe dance to this at a previous dance show, and I now have ideas myself for a contemporary piece. Thanks Aimee for reminding me of this!

14 October 2014


Apologies for my recent absence, but I've had too much stuff to do for school, I really need to make a schedule. Anyway, I was using this to help me concentrate when writing my entry for a creative writing competition; it helps so much!

7 October 2014

The Stress Is Killing Me...

Right, I struggle to say things out loud, so it's best I explain through this blog. I've been under such a lot of stress recently.

  • I'm really stressing about my GCSEs, which are only months away!
  • I'm trying to juggle extra time at school after 3.30 every week to stay for my AS level. Coursework starts in a couple of weeks, so I'll be drowning in that before long.
  • My mocks are in December and I'm frantically trying to revise for them.
  • I'm struggling to get to dance classes on time through the sheer amount of homework  I have to do.
  • I think I've more or less lost one of my closest friends, so I'm pretty bummed about that now.
  • I'm doing extra stretching sessions in my very short 'relaxing' time, but more rececently it's become 'revision and stretch' time.
  • I have at least two exams a week, and that's pretty stressful in itself.
  • I'm not getting enough sleep. I'm trying my very hardest to sleep, but it's just not working. I guess my brain is far too busy.
  • Trying to keep up to date with this blog.
  • I hardly have enough time to even make contact with my friends. Sucks.

Now, to everyone else, these things may seem extremely trivial, especially as I'm finally getting into the real world, and everyone else has much larger problems than I do. But these things are all so important to me, so I'm trying my hardest to fit everything in and it's not quite working.

And because of these, I'm getting very snappy at everyone; I constantly seem to be in a bad mood, and when talking to people, or even writing on the blog, I seem to be saying things I don't mean. At least, I'm not explaining them properly.

I get so caught up in the moment and writing really helps me to just get it out, so my head can feel a bit lighter again. I guess I just haven't been thinking about anyone else recently and have just been trying to make my 'burden' a little lighter, and that's so selfish of me, and I hate it so much.

It's all becoming a lot now; I'm doing too much. I think I may break soon if I don't do something. Or I'm going to have to leave something behind in the wayside. And that will have to be some form of dance, I guess. School is a priority until I get my grades, as much as I hate that idea, it's true. I love dance and my school more than anything, but GCSEs come first.

Please, God, help me, and I will repay you. I don't mean to hurt anyone, and this is really hard to admit I'm doing wrong but I am, and all I want to do is fix it.


5 October 2014

Think Happy...52/52...

I'm so glad it's Sunday now, I've not stopped all week. Welcome to the real world Carys! But seriously, it feels good just to be able to sit down and do my own thing after so many exams.

You may also have noticed that this is the last Think Happy! I've been doing this for a year now, and I'm going to stop these Sunday posts. In return, I feel I'll be able to post more freely about other topics, so hopefully that means more posts! Yay!

1. Last night I went to a joint birthday party two of my friends hosted, and I had an amazing time, except the blisters! Ouch, you shouldn't dance in heels for three hours, I don't envy you uni/college lot who party multiple times a week!

On the other hand, we got a lot of dancing done!

Storm, me and Imi

2. I also really enjoyed dance classes yesterday.

Slightly blurry photo of me in my crazy colours! Normally I wear a black skirt, but I went for red for a change!

In pointe, I decided to film some of the work we did, and watching back the footage has given me more of an idea of what to do to improve. I'll be doing this more often!

3. I figured out the most perfect in-pointe-shoe padding for my feet at the minute! Will be writing about that this week, I found a couple of new tricks that completely take the pain of pointe away for me.

4. I've been working on my splits, although only in dance classes. Monday night consisted of street dance, but I can't remember if we did splits then or not. I think we did. On Tuesday night at contemporary, Becky got out the crash mats again, so everyone could practise their forwards roles. I'm not doing one in our dance, so I just sat by the mirrors stretching out my back and stretching my splits, which felt so fulfilling. Last but not least, in ballet yesterday Kerstin had us doing some splits stretches, and I didn't have to do as many as usual to get my splits, which I was so proud of!

5. Best til last.........


To make it seem even better, I wasn't exactly trying either, I was attempting a single but ending up just carrying on, and who was I to stop it? Unfortunately, my camera was being a little shit and decided not to record this, or my wonderful pirouette/piqué turns across the room, which more than annoyed me! But at least people saw me do it, and my camera recorded my courus!

28 September 2014

Think Happy...51/52...

Right, so it's once again Sunday, which means that there's only one week of these Sunday posts left now!

1. Street on Monday was 50/50, but I'm putting it in for the good half anyway. Hannah was feeling very down and I couldn't do anything to help her. But, on the plus side, she started to enjoy herself slightly when we got down to actually doing our dance. There's a bit where we have to do sexy walks, and we love that bit ;)

But Danny was taking part in it too, beating the whole lot of us girls at being feminine! He tried to get George to have a laugh with it too, but he just manned-it-up instead.

2. Contemporary was rather enlightening, to be honest. I figured out that I can't do forward rolls from standing - only from the floor, and even then it's barely! It's a good job we have crash mats, because I jump into them more than roll.

But, Jack didn't even say hi before class, let alone give a hug like normal. He later let me know that he was annoyed at something, although I didn't ask what; hm, it seems like everyone is in a bad mood recently! It must be the coming of winter making us all feel so gloomy.

3. This evening, I went out for a meal with my family for the first time in a long time. We went to our favourite Indian restaurant, and we had a great time!

4. Dance yesterday was good yesterday! We had ballet quizzes to fill in for Jade, and Kerstin worked us hard in both ballet and pointe classes!

5. Today is Greg's birthday, happy 17th!! Hope you had a great day, after getting a red card yesterday! Good job you didn't get a ban, that would've been an awful birthday present xD Don't underestimate your tackles xD

What Do You Mean My Ballet Grade Has Been Scrapped?!...

At ballet last week, all was going fine, until our dance teacher announced, out of the blue, that the IDTA Grade 6 Ballet Exam has been scrapped. Oh, what a thing to tell us so suddenly!

But it turns out, it's kind of been merged with the Intermediate grade, so we're taking that instead. Apparantly, there's a whole batterie section, and a twenty minute pointework section at the end. Wow, I'm going to need some good luck! But, I am actually so excited! All these years of work are going to be put together into new variations and we get new steps!

On another note, is there a way to clean the insides of ouch pouches? Mine are absolutely vile!

23 September 2014


This mix is awesome, in my opinion. And this channel also has some gems on it, be sure to check some other songs out while you're there!

21 September 2014

Think Happy...50/52...

I intended to write another post this morning about some dance classes I took yesterday, but I've been busy working on my Textiles coursework today. In which case, I'll tell you now.

1. Ballet was so fun; we actually learnt new steps that we can put into our grade, and in pointe we did enchainements (yay, I can't spell French!). Afterwards, I discovered that the toe I had a blister on a couple of months ago had now swollen around the knuckle, which was very painful just to even walk on.

Hannah, myself, and Evie

2. Hannah and I took a taster pole dance class for an hour yesterday afternoon, and that was so much fun! But I really admire professionals now, it takes so much strength that I didn't have, so it kind of failed for me then, and now my stomach and shoulders hurt so bad from it, which I guess is a good indication.

I can't continue to take classes, as they're £10 for a one hour class, once a week for six weeks, and I can't afford that. But Hannah is determined to go, and I'm proud of her! Yay Hannah!

3. I also then went back to Hannah's, where we played The Sims 4! Ohmygosh it was so fun! Expect a YouTube video soon!

Comfy on Hannah's bed

4. I've been using Skype a lot more than normal in the second half of this week, which has been a blessing. My friends are just so nice and they're helping me gain more confidence through using it.

5. My friend Ice from Flourishing Sweetheart has released some amazing news, you go girl! But I'm going to leave that for her to tell you guys, so go follow her; she's awesome!

6. I've just been in a really really good mood all week, if I'm being honest! Creative Writing was fun this week, we were writing from an image, which I loved!

That's all for now everyone, hope this week goes well for you!

16 September 2014


So personally I think this is an adorable song with adorable lyrics and an adorable little 'dance'. Please check it out!

14 September 2014

Think Happy...49/52...

You may or may not know that I celebrated my birthday yesterday, so I can easily say that this week has been quite good, to be fair!

1. I turned 16! I feel so old, it's kind of crazy, really, even though I'm not! Just compared to being 14, for example, I definitely feel more mature!

I spent the day with Hannah. We had dance in the morning, which was nice and challenging! The lessons were good and made us sweat and ache and groan, but it's all for a good cause.

In pointe, we also learnt a variation that Hayley, our teacher, made on the spot and I loved it! I think I've really improved with my couru-ing!

Hannah then came home with me and we went on a walk, ate pizza, and messed around on my laptop, whilst eating chocolate! It was a fun day.

2. I finished my yoga socks! Well, I use them for pointework now, and they're so warm and comfy!

3. Maths class on Friday we had a cover lesson. And the teacher we had was so good at teaching. Like, our class actually understood how to transform functions by the end of it!

It was also very entertaining. I was part of a conversation with Saffron, Ella and Taisir about one of Saffron's many hilarious stories, one of which I've never heard before. And considering I sat next to her for maths at the end of last year, that was surprising. She can talk for England!

4. I got an A* in my mid-unit Restless Earth geography paper this week, which I'm so pleased with! I only dropped 2 marks, and they were silly mistakes, so I know how to correct that next time.

5. I watched the entire first season of Sherlock today. I got the box set of all three seasons so far yesterday from my parents, so I spent four and a half hours today watching it. Wow, it's so good!

I think that's all for now anyway, actually. I hope you have a good Monday, I'll see you on Tuesday!